Which thought am I?

I joined in on the open meditation session last night at Common Grounds in Mpls.  It had been a while... I knew going there that I was mostly identified with thought and the 30 minute sit would be challenging.  And it was.

My foot fell asleep quickly, my upper back was felt sore, my attention went to my thoughts most of the time, I observed it all as neutrally as possible, I confess I adjusted my posture twice (that was a yogi joke, laugh now).  After guiding us (60 or 70 fellow meditators) through the sit, the intrustor gave a very helpful darma talk on what it is to practice mindfullness.  He quoted the Buddha in saying that 50 or 70 percent of the 'work' is becoming aware that we are identified with thought.  'Letting Go' of the attachement happens naturally as soon as the light of awareness shines.  When we are identified with our thoughts we believe we are our thoughts.  I was kindly reminded of what a silly concept this is ?!?!

Which thought am I?  Consider all of the ridculous, innaproriate, fantasy, rude, generous, kind, joyful thoughts a human has in...oh... 10 mintues.  Do any of these thoughts define who am I am?  No.

To identify with each passing thought leads to suffering and frustration, feeling unsettled and never grounded.  The mind is never grounded, moving from one attachement to the next to the next to the next.  In one beautiful breath of awareness we see the silly ramblings of the mind and become the observer. I am the observer.  The one watching, noticing...  and through exercising this mindfullness muscle the heart learns not to cling to every thought.  Hold the thought, honor it, watch it pass.  Life gets easier, we see situations exactly as they are.  This moment overflows with Acceptance, Joy, Peace, Love.

This morning I woke up and wove my field (my new morning ritual I learned at school) and did a 15 minute sit.

love to all.
Kate

Beginners Mind

Recently I came across this concept of "beginners mind".  It popped up in 3 different situations simultaneously.  To my knowledge it originates within Buddhist teachings.

I can think a situation or idea to death, trying so hard to figure it out, search forever for the perfect answer.  Stop.  Trust.  Let go.  In acquiring a "beginners mind" I surrender needing to know everything, needing to be perfect.  I admit deeply to myself that I know just a teeny-tiny fraction of the infinite, ever-expanding universe.  I am naive to many subjects.  It's a conscious choice to approach life with a sense of wonder and curiosity, available right now.  Trusting that nothing is coincedence and in even the darkest hour there is great opportunity for soul growth.

Join me!  Throw up your sails and ride the wind.

Kate

Katie to Kate

I love pondering the transformation of the butterfly.  The caterpiller dissolves and a butterfly is born of its remains.  A yoga teacher of mine said during class once "In order to become someone new you have to be willing to give up who you have been".  Woah.  Feel the depth of that?  To become a fuller, more happy, healthy, free version of myself, I have to be willing to give up who I was before.

As many of you have noticed and so graciously adapted is that I've decided to start being called Kate more often now then Katie.  Katie feels younger, innocent, dependent on others, tended to blend in, put the needs of others in front of her own...   Kate is more bold, has traveled more, is more independent, can stand for her truth, feels the divine within... I could go on...

I went through a period of feeling an uncomfortable duality within.  Teetering back and forth between Katie and Kate.  A freaky feeling.  Fear of change!  oh no! I fear change just like everyone else!  crap. 

In the past I was trapped within myself.  Covered by veils of insecurities, self-doubt, worry, fear (more details at a later date of the AMAZING healings I've experienced over the last couple years, thank you teachers near and far).  Through my healing journey I reclaim parts of my soul that were misplaced during traumatic times, in this lifetime and past.  The more whole I am in myself the healthier I am.

love and light.

A declaration of Intention!

Hi you!

Earlier I made a strong and powerful declaration of intentions!  Setting an intention OUT LOUD carries the energy, I ask my angels to hold me to it also.  I said them out loud and emailed them to my Global Somatics compadres.  And now I ask you to hold them for me.  They are (in order that I realized them):

1)       From this moment forward I take full responsibility for my thoughts, words and actions.  Understanding that each of those are made of energy and affect me and the world in every way.  This includes beliefs I took on from others, energy that was projected on me and self-created agreements, past present and future, subconscious and conscious.  Huzaa.

2)      I release my habit of codependency!  I no longer need the approval of others to be happy.  I understand more than ever that needing the approval or appreciation of others for happiness very directly leads to dissapointment.  No more.  I make myself happy.

3)      I release my fear of offending others.  My heart flame burns brightly.  I am seen, heard and understood by most.  Some will not understand my message and may mock me. So be it.  I will not internalize the mocking.

What intentions are you setting?

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Katie Awake Online 

I midwife my clients through soul birth of their infinite potential; through and beyond childhood and past life trauma.  The result for them is more happiness now, more pleasure in their bodies, soul mate relationships, more money & the birth of their sacred work further into the world

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💛Katie