Grief is love.

In surrendering to mourning we see that death is an illusion. There are no veils between us - there is no separation between realities or between the body and spirit, they flow into and through one another. The universe is one big inhale and exhale. Through surrender, emotions purge through our hearts and break down barriers we built - we break open raw to once again allow LOVE to fill us, breathe us, over flow us; until we remember we are already home.

"TEAR OF THE MASK, YOUR FACE IS GLORIOUS!" -rumi

I'm tired of un-truth's being held as truths. I'm tired of the pervading un-truth that anyone is above or below anyone else. I'm tired of masks. I'm tired of limiting life draining gender roles. I'm tired of imbalanced relationships. I'm tired holding myself to anything just because someone else told me to or because it's 'normal'. I'm tired of silencing myself to let someone else stay comfortable. I'm tired of containing what could be judged. I'm tired of fakeness, falseness and half-living. I'm enough, you're enough, everyone is not just enough, we are all magnificent beautiful beings of light and it's time we KNOW IT. Let's shed the skin of pretending to be anything less than amazing. There is NO WAY that you're not amazing because we're all born of the same LIGHT. I am, you are! Come out, speak from your heart, be who you are, you are needed. What once was anger is fire for change. Stop holding yourself back out of fear and just GO. I am fire. I have a mission to help heal humanity from un-truths, join me. Talking to myself, talking to my heart, higher self is talking to me, talking to you.

I like being in process

I'm painting my apartment. My furniture's all pulled to the center of my space, I'm eating my meals on the couch, using a chair as a table. I like being in process. I like sitting here being exactly where I am, partially figured out. Always in process of learning the current lesson, resting in the moment and being the joy in my heart. I have a lot of journals and pages full of notes along the way on this self-transformation journey and it's fun. I like following the energy of the moment. I like laughing at the plan I thought I would have today and watching as something completely different transpires. I like feeling so inspired by an insight that I have to find a pen and paper to write it down. I like allowing the process of an insight going onto paper, turning into a blog post or a yoga sequence or an idea for a class. I like reading something fascinating and then being amazed at how that very subject comes up for my client the next day. I love letting go of worry. I love releasing fear. I love letting my friends in on my internal world. I love the feeling of love flowing through my heart. This love in my heart is home.