shame is a LIE

I am so sick of shame. What is that anyway? Somebody telling someone else that they're not ok?? WTF. Makes no sense. Somebody just gets on some soap box and starts preaching that they know the right way and that everyone else is fucked up if they don't match whatever this preacher is saying is right and heaven worthy?

Why would we not be perfect and beautiful just as we are. Really look at this. You ARE. You simply are as you are, you are who you are. Your body is the one that you are in, you're made of love, you are love, you're surrounded by love. God I am so done with judgement and shame. If your heart's beating and your soul is tingling reading this then maybe you are too. It's time we all just have a deep look at ourselves, clear the bullshit lies that we carry around shaming ourselves with now, and rise up free. C'mon!!!

Sexual energy is our true power

Our life force energy grumbles beneath our feet. The suppressed sexual energy on this planet wreaks havoc on us all - and that is what I'm here to help change. We have been cut off from our true sexual - creative power - for WAY too long. The earth and heavens unite within us. As our true life force, our beloved Mother Earth, groans and wakes up, she ecstatically flows up into our bodies. Fear, doubt, hesitation, worry - are GONE. The feminine is once again reunited with her masculine as this merging occurs. Mother Earth with Father Sky. Equals. Clear the lower chakras by doing the work. Clear shame first and foremost. Shaming from people, institutions and cultures disconnected from our glorious planet. As our human self clears all those lies our life force flows up higher to our heart - our minds- our crowns. We begin to experience life as innocent children again, here to play, learn and grow. It's worth the clearing work! GO go go!!!

Your soul is longing to merge with you. Her path is clouded by fear and doubt and shame. There is no stopping her from breaking through these barriers - the more consciously we clear our bodies of fear, the less we'll experience illness, pain, or physical injury. Do your emotional soul clearing work. If you haven't yet, go into your own shadow and have a look around, what still needs love, what rooms can you illuminate? Do your work, then enjoy the abundant rewards!

Tires Plus is a magical place

My beloved Saturn broke down today. I love her. She is a good friend, we're very close ;)

Not to worry, it sounds like she's gonna be fine and probably kick it along with me for a little while longer. We've had many fond memories together, like when I used to lock my keys in her all the time and have to break in - or when I left my flashers on at St. Ben's for 3 days and got a few tickets.... awww fondness.

Getting down to the business of this writing - As she was slowing down today, lights going off, losing speed, then just stopped, I started to freak out, felt sad, felt self-conscious, felt bad for myself, shed a couple tears. So I call AAA, and the operator had the same name as my sweet niece. I love the universe for these obvious syncronicities. Immediately I had a larger perspective and just knew this situation I orchestrated and drew to myself to get to a deeper level of letting go of feeling like a victim. My reality is a reflection of myself. My car is a mirror of me. When I don't take care of my body or ignore my red flags - I lose energy!

Sitting in my burnt out car I flagged cars around me - I alchemized some sorrow and abandonment frequencies. Then a nice guy with a tow truck gave us a lift to my favorite tires plus. Here's the best part: The guy working there said 'you know, I feel bad that I don't feel bad for you' HA! (I thought to myself) He said ' I just see this all the time' and went on to tell me a story about a woman who cried to him for an hour about her divorce. Who knew that car mechanics also offer therapy.

That confirmed it for me. I knew within that I am done feeling like a victim to circumstance. My reality is always a reflection of myself. JOY is the new normal. I love perceiving life as energy, and limitless potential and possibility opens up to us as we realize that we are co-creating our lives every moment with our thoughts, feelings and energy. If you want some extra perspective in realizing your spiritual sovereignty and power you can reach me at livingalchemy@hushmail.com or come try some Bikram yoga in St. Paul.

Peace.
Kaitlin

Unbelievable joy

Why is it difficult to allow joy? We've worked so, so hard the last 5 years purging, clearing, and then clearing some more. Life says, it's time now to enjoy the fruits of your work!!! Yet I find a part of myself trying to sabotage it. WEEEEEEIIIRD. So, I'm not gonna :) I've experienced sabotaging joy enough times. Here we go!!!! Living the truth of our souls is fun. It is easy. It's amazing how a part of me thinks (key word there: thinks) that life is supposed to be difficult, that I have to 'work' really hard to earn something good. well I say bullshit to that. LOVE is EASY. It is who we are, just allow it! That's the hard part. We believe life is supposed to be difficult, and sure feeling through pain is uncomfortable, but only to the degree that we resist it. Try this: let life flow through you. Trust that an open heart is our natural state, that we are made of love. Doing our souls work, being really busy with it, is pure joy. Heaven on Earth, and that is where we're headed. Even through the darkest of experiences, that doesn't change. we are love in form, and that love will break us open and shine brighter then any fear, it will just start to happen spontaneously, fear can only hold love back for so long..... get ready for love to break through!!! weeeeeeee!!!

Responsible for the suffering of others

This theme is very apparent in my world. The need for me to drop feeling responsible for everyone's healing just had to happen, and it's a process to let go of. I find it so interesting how difficult a drop it is! This is a deeply ingrained animal, that we need to carry other peoples pain, that we are responsible for the hurt feelings of others. Going further, that we need to filter what we say or don't say to prevent other's from an imagined 'negative' reaction. I'm knowing that it is time for me now to drop those filters. That it is my true responsibility to be HONEST with how I feel, with what I need, and especially in sharing from the light of my soul. Often I don't share my deepest knowings because I'm afraid it will be too much for the people I'm with, for my client or for the group. But I see that is seeing them in a limited perception, and I'm sorry about that! Through out my life when people have been just honest with me, honest with how they see me, honest with what they don't like about me, honest with how they see me limiting myself...it smarts...but then it is the BEST gift. For those mirrors, I am grateful. So, pretty much what I am saying, is that I am translucent now, I am transparent. Which means I talk about when I'm triggered and out of body because I'm afraid I've offended you. I talk about my crazy mind that tells me lies about being stupid or that someone is 'mad' at me, whatever that means. And most beautifully, I'm honest from the truth of MY core. It is my duty to speak honestly and strongly about the power of love. I've learned that my voice matters and so does yours. All of us sharing in a circle is an act of creation. It adds to the beauty and evolution of this planet and humanity.

Trusting the un-foldment of life

For a few years now we've cleared and cleared and cleared - clutter and debris from our hearts, our minds, and our souls. This body of mine, and many others that I know, are much more open and clear. We are seeing the path opening up, the new creations are unfolding before us. The bridges from the old known ways of living to the new way of harmony, connection and community are built, secure and beautiful too :)

You might be in clearing mode, you might be in germination just wanting to be inside yourself as your soul births yourself anew, you might be feeling ready and full of dreams as we soon transition into Spring. My heart is DELIGHTED to step forth into living consciously connected with nature, community, and most of all my dear beloved. Wherever you are on your journey, I wish us all great courage to step out of known molds of how we THINK our lives SHOULD be and truly follow the path that feels JOYFUL to us. yay!!!

Dating and Relationships

Oh this is a messy subject. Lots of people looking around and around for what they want, for what might bring them fulfillment... searching for what? Connection. We want to be truly seen, heard, and loved. I'll tell ya people, if you don't look inside and feel your connection to yourself, to the divine, you will never find what you're looking for out there! It is a restless, exhausting search, because love is already in you! There are aspects of you just waiting for you to pick them up, dust them off, accept and love them into your heart. What do you ignore in yourself? What parts of you are screaming for your attention? Looking for fulfillment outside will leave you tired every time if you are running away from yourself.

Take a break, take a moment, take a breath. Breathe into your body, what needs need meeting? What does your body need? What emotions are being felt? Can you let that energy just move through you?

The people we are connected to, the relationships we are in, or the tiring relationship patterns we keep finding ourselves in, all have messages for us. They show us what needs to be seen in us, in you!

I support my clients with unconditional love to shine the light of their consciousness in any dark rooms or ignored or hurting places within them. And here's the magic alchemy!! As soon as that dark room starts to fill up with light the pain starts to turn into love! There is release, healing and true beauty is remembered <3

Lots more writing to come on these subjects.... :)