Yoga in my life

I took my first yoga classes in 2008 after Graduating from college at yogafresh in Woodbury. These first heated yoga classes blew me away. Never before had I felt so fresh (pun intended), so blissful, so joyful... what was that? My body felt wrung out, born again, yes...that...good. There was no going back to a lower vibration, I wanted more! Soon I was invited to try a 90 min hot class at Bikram Woodbury. Holy moly, this was a whole new ball game! 90 minutes, 26 postures, 105 degrees and humid. I literally felt I got turned inside out, I felt renewed again and again after each class. My roomates and I (hey gurls hey) in 2009 would get ourselves all revved up and march into the hot yoga rooms at Corepoweryoga in Minneapolis. Not really sure of what crazy motive brought us to that hot box, we got on those sacred rectangles and killed it. A good class was one where I would get that 'I'm gonna die' panic to run out of the room screaming... and consciously CHOOSE to breath through the panic and stay commited to my practice. The anxiety had less and less control over me, I controlled IT. My breath was more important. My body had started changing. More fit, more tone, I started making different choices on food and drink so that I would feel better at yoga. I started going to bed earlier and sleeping better. All of these small changes in lifestyle led to even bigger ones. That fall of 2010 I decided to take the plunge and signed up for hot yoga teacher training at Uptown, Mpls. Clicking the enter button to put down my deposit my heart pounded like a jack hammer, I was terrified. I knew then and I know more now that the scariest choices lead to the most growth. Through that 8 week, 200 hr teacher training, I became more disciplined in taking care of myself and continued to find more depth in my yoga postures. I cut way back on unhealthy habits (drinking especially, and TV, I used to use alchohol and TV to numb my anxiety) and allowed yoga to be the center of my life. Upon completing all the components of CPY training I was welcomed in to CPY woodbury with wide open arms. I was lucky to get some hot classes on the schedule straight away! I remember catching myself in the mirror while I was teaching sometimes and thinking 'oh my god I'm doing this!' I've been teaching for 3 years and tonight I embarked on coaching my first hot yoga teacher training. I believe my external world is a reflection of my internal world. Over the years, as I've consciously chosen to work through fear, my external world has reflected it. I've learned more about the connection between quantum physics and spirituality lately and I do believe we create our realities through our beliefs, thoughts and emotions etc. Both our conscious minds and our subconscious minds. Earlier in my life my reality included fairly heavy bits of judgement, fear, insecurity.. because that's what I had on the inside. As I've worked through and processed a lot of that stuff my reality has become much more fun! More joyful and peaceful. My insides and outsides! This healing journey won't be over for a while, and afterwards I imagine something new starts. There is a lot of work to do on this planet!! love and light to you. I share this because...yes I am proud of myself. And even more so because I think a lot of people stay stuck in fear their whole lives never doing what they really want to do. There is fear there because the potential for growth and joy is so great! That's the way it works! Go for it, let go, loose control, do it, press the enter button, now is the time. The right energies are here now on the planet to support you. Onward!!