My whole life I lived with a mysterious, in-the-background feeling, that I was sexually abused as a child. I was so used to it being there, that I had somehow learned to tuck it away neatly into a drawer. I'm also grateful to my subconscious and Soul for blocking out the memories; this is an amazing survival skill we can do.
As I've become safe in my life by restoring my inner energetic sovereignty with God and by marrying my amazing husband; the memories started coming up intensely - right after we were married actually! I feel it was this internal shift into being safely supported and loved by masculine energy that my body started spontaneously processing, clearing and purging the s3xual trauma memories.
It has been extremely scary and difficult at times. But I just do what I always do; trust my Soul's healing process and surrender to God. I'm really not afraid of anything because I know I'm eternal.
I also know that I am not just purging my trauma, but that of my ancestors and some of the collective on ths planet, too. As I'm sure some of you can relate, this is the nitty gritty work we are doing to help humanity.
Though, I do not abide in a martyr role. No. I process and clear what I feel is my Soul's 'work load' to do; as I am most interested in living a wildy fun and abundant life :)
I feel compelled to type this tonight because I can feel my feminine energy coalescing into greater clarity by sharing this part of my story. Like rough waters becoming calm :) I feel safe because I can feel how my inner masculine energy has my back. Also, if I can be a light for someone else, that is good.
If you're curious about 1:1 energy reading and healing work with me, just message me. I have 4 spots currently open for my 3 month program Soul Sunrise. Link to apply in my bio Sunshine!
all the love,
Katie
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